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Dealing with Fear

Fear memeIt took me so long to understand how much fear I lived with and how it was slowly strangling my dreams and life. I wouldn't make moves with Simply Catering because I could not see a clear path to success. I was afraid to fail; which meant I was afraid to try.

Growing hurts! It is calling "growing pains" for a reason. It is not easy to be uncomfortable. To look myself in the face and say "I'm afraid", was one of the most vulnerable feelings I have faced.


It seemed like out of the blue when I decided I was NOT going to be controlled by fear anymore. I was going to move in confidence. I was not going to be afraid to fall on my face. I was not going to be afraid to be successful. I was not going to be afraid to heal. I was not going to be scared of my best possible self.


With that in mind, I moved 2000 miles away. I gave up some of my independence and freedom by living in another person's home. I can not express how much it stung my pride. A forty-four year old woman with a cat, renting a room in someone else's home, after 8 years of being on my own again; yep it hurt.


However, I could not get hung up on pride. I need to take these steps back in order to take steps forward. It has taken almost a year, but I have never felt stronger. Crazy part is, I am not even CLOSE to reaching my goals.


Yes, I have GOALS and PLANS! I am not going to let fear stop me from moving towards them, changing or achieving them.

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