I love to cook, in case you have not noticed. In my (not so) humble opinion, I tend to be pretty good at it. Recently, I realized I was using my cooking abilities in both a healthy and unhealthy manner. As I look back over the years, I can see where I used it as a tool to get people to like me. Moreover, I would use my culinary prowess to get praise and acceptance.
When holding on becomes to painful, we often forgot we have the option to release. We only think about how painful it will be after letting go, while ignoring the current pain we are currently experiencing. It is important to remember while we are holding on the pain is indefinite. After letting go, healing can start. The wound cant start to heal, taking the pain with it.
Today, I decided I needed a self-care day. It was a difficult, emotional past few months. I’m finally back in Ohio. Yet, my tension are still quite high. It has been a while since, I had taken some time to myself, alone. It was time I put everyone else on hold. For a few hours, I need to shrug off all my stress, hurt and confusion.
When life gives you lemons, they said you should make lemonade. There are times when the lemons are so tart, it doesn’t seem as if they will be enough water or sugar to make the lemonade sweet enough to be enjoyed. This is the exact situation, which brings me back in California.
Waking up with anxiety is not fun. It is even worse when there is a long list of appointment before me. After taking a couple of long, slow deep breaths, I was able to thoughts. At least long enough to formulate a plan to grab some peace before the possible storm.
Over the last few months, I noticed there are a few people I am really down with and a few people who are really down with me. The interesting thing about this, both said not contain the same people. I have changed how I interact with a lot of people; some do not seem to have noticed.